Author: anna

Meeting ourselves where we are

When I first came to Rosen, I thought of myself as someone who was pretty self-aware and who understood her own emotions and the world around her. What I realised through having Rosen sessions over many months, was that the self that I thought I knew was hiding quite a lot under the surface! The conscious and subconscious are often described like an iceberg – where the small tip of the iceberg that is visible above water is the conscious and the huge submerged part under the water is the subconscious. And with such a weight behind it, is it any wonder that the subconscious does so much steering of our lives! So, with this in mind, it is not surprising that there was a large part of myself that I was not familiar with and that I subsequently began to get to know.  

The parts of ourselves that we show to the world and those around us, are often the parts that we are will to show the world – perhaps our ‘best versions’ as we perceive them. Maybe we want those around us to see that we are happy, kind, sociable, funny, clever, or any number of qualities that we value. Which means that there will be many other ‘rejected’ parts of ourselves that we are trying to obscure from the world and from ourselves, including parts that are unconscious. Perhaps we feel or have learnt that it is not acceptable to be sad, angry, quiet, to need our own space or to not know. The result of this can be that we unconsciously close down or deny parts of our experience and therefore don’t allow ourselves to live in the world in all our fullness and beauty.  

I have certainly met this in myself through Rosen sessions! Let’s explore the example of anger and frustration. I had in many ways denied myself these emotions and therefore closed the possibility for myself to really feel and express that part of myself and those responses to the world. I perceived myself as someone who was not angry, whilst silently seething. And, what I have also realised since, is that this seething was apparent to those around me, even if I was in denial myself!  

My practitioner supported me to begin to express, allow and release this over time. But to begin with, I needed to get familiar with what anger felt like in my body and to allow myself to stay with the feeling and allow it to unfold. It could be very elusive to begin with, I might get a small glimpse or sensation, only for it to dissolve into fear, blankness or confusion. There might be other emotions alongside it too, mixing up and making it hard to have a sense of the anger. Together with the support of my practitioner, I learnt to allowed it to return and be there in my body, and, almost like getting to know a wild animal, I have gradually been able to meet it and touch it more fully. I know that through doing this, I have become much freer in my way of being in the world and a lot that was unconsciously held in the body around this has been released.  

It doesn’t mean that I don’t experience anger now of course, in fact the effect has been that I am able to recognise and own it more when it does arise. I am less inclined to resist it or be afraid of it when I do feel frustrated or angry. I am more resourced to meet it rather than push it away. There is a freedom in knowing ourselves more deeply and in allowing those parts of ourselves to have their space and to say what they need to. There is a strength that can come from this, an opportunity for empowering ourselves.

Rosen offers us opportunities to get familiar with these unfamiliar parts of ourselves, to bring the unconscious in to our experience and to acknowledge more of ourselves in our lives.  

If you would like to book a session or find out more, please get in touch via my contact page.  

Warmly and with gratitude,  

Anna x

Cry, Heart, but never break (Death & Inspiration)

These last few years in particular seem to have brought the experience and reality of death more to the forefront of many of our minds. So many have witnessed the deaths of those they love, many have lost their lives and others have heard about such vast numbers of people dying all over the world. It can be a challenging subject to navigate for ourselves, because it is often considered taboo to talk about or dwell on, yet it is the one certainty in life: that we will all die.  

This has been a particularly strong part of my practice this year, having experienced several significant deaths in a short space of time. Something that drew them all together and that has had a strong impact, was the fact that they all seemed so ‘alive’ and ‘cut short’ in their lives. It leaves me pondering my own life, and that of those around me – death is certain and its exact arrival is unknown.  

To some, this may seem an incredibly morbid subject, but for me it seems more an inspiration. There is an aliveness in being conscious of death. It is a reminder of our own death and can be an inspiration and reminder to live our lives with more fullness and perhaps taking more opportunities to feel the fear and do it anyway in some circumstances where we tend to hold ourselves back. There is a Mary Oliver poem called ‘When death comes,’ that really speaks of this for me, where she says she wants to be able to say ‘I was a bride married to amazement. I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.’ So we may find inspiration to experience our lives and the world with a greater depth. And my experience is that Rosen can support us to do that – to open to a fuller picture of our own experience, emotions and truth and therefore to open more fully to the world. 

Death can also be a doorway into love. When we lose someone or nearly lose someone who we care about, it can allow us to open naturally towards love. This isn’t likely to be the whole of our experience, and it may not be our experience at all. But for me this has been a reality of opening to death over the last few years. We may find that the heart cracks open and allows us to peek inside, to feel the depth of the love that we feel for fellow humans (and therefore the capacity for love that we have for ourselves too). This may also allow the potential to open to the world more widely: all beings experience loss, death reaches us all, so we can see a shared humanity, a shared experience. We can love one another in our shared grieving, our shared experience of loss and bereavement. There may be a little more space for more of ourselves, more of others and more of the world.

There is a beautiful children’s book which speaks of this too which I was recently recommended. ‘Cry, Heart, But Never Break’ by Glenn Ringtved, which is a beautifully written and illustrated story about a dying grandmother, and the connection between grief and joy.  

Recent bereavement may not be an ideal time to start having Rosen sessions, however it may be that the work allows us to unfold, unravel and open a little to our experience from a past bereavement. If you are interested in finding out more about Rosen, do get in touch. I offer free consultation calls to get an idea of me and to find out more. This also gives me an opportunity to hear about you and find out whether the work might be suitable for you at this time in your life.  

Warmly and with gratitude, 

Anna x 

Cancellations & what to do

We all need to change our plans at times, and it is important to feel able to do so when you need to. It is also important for me to take care of myself and my practice as a self-employed practitioner, so I have a cancellations policy in place to support us all.  

My cancellation policy allows you to cancel or reschedule an appointment up to 24 hours before a session without any charge. However, if you need to reschedule within 24 hours of a session time, I ask that you pay the full session price in order to support me to continue my work. It may be that there are extenuating circumstances, and in this case I will waiver the charge at my own discretion. As Covid has been such a serious and large part of our lives and awareness over the last few years, if you have Covid, I ask that you cancel your session and you will not be charged (unless you feel able to and wish to pay). 

To reschedule or cancel an appointment, please pop me an email, or if it is closer to the appointment time, give me a call so that I know not to expect you at your appointment. I am friendly and human, so please do feel able to call and speak to me about any concerns you may have. 

Warmly and with gratitude,  

Anna x 

From ‘hiding behind a chair’ to being deeply seen

A friend recently rejoiced in the change they had seen in me through my practice and work in relation to being seen more fully. She said that when she had first met me (some years ago), she had the impression that I might have hidden behind a chair if I had been able to. It was interesting to hear this reflection and observation from someone who knows me well. She also said, that I am now more and more able to allow myself to be seen by friends and those around me.  

‘Yes,’ I thought, ‘And most importantly, be seen by myself too!’ Through receiving and practicing Rosen, I have become more used to and comfortable with looking at how I am (from muscular holding to emotional responses) and learning to acknowledge whatever I find. Reading this, you may think this sounds terrifying – certainly, I would have been very uncomfortable with this idea some years ago! But, the reality for me seems to be more opportunities to live life more fully, connect more deeply and be relaxed and at ease more in day to day life.  

Many of us spend our lives avoiding being seen, or attempting to only show certain parts of our experience. We might subconsciously want to be seen as ‘a good girl/boy’ or as ‘strong, independent and dependable’, but less keen to be seen as someone who is angry, afraid or sad. We might not even realise that we are holding these views of how to be in world, but there is often an unconscious difference between how we present ourselves and the whole truth of our experience. We each carry with us aspects of our experiences over our lives that are challenging to meet and acknowledge and when we don’t accept them, it can result in a disconnection with ourselves, our bodies and even those around us. My experience of Rosen has been that through gently inviting these aspects of my experience to unfold, have space and express themselves, I have been able to open more fully into life with them.

We may find it is a relief to be able to start to see these rejected and ‘unacceptable’ parts of ourselves. To see the raging toddler who needed to stamp and scream, or notice the sad and lonely teenager who was in need of love and affection. It doesn’t meant that we need to live our lives as our ‘raging toddler’ or ‘lonely teenager’ and be stuck in those modes, but that by allowing those experiences to be felt in the body, expressed, and witnessed by ourselves and our practitioner, we may be able to let go of the hold they have on our lives and find some liberation from our past experiences.  

Rosen for me is a tool which guides me towards deeper self-awareness and interest in the subtleties of my experience. Over time, I have become more aware of how my breath changes, what areas of my body tighten or relax and how emotions present themselves to me in the body and mind in different situations. This is something I have really explored in Rosen sessions with my practitioner, as well as in my daily practice, meditation and life. There is always more we can open to, more we can learn and therefore more possibilities to be fully alive in the world. And this awareness also offers us opportunities to be more open and more spacious for those around us. I notice that as my own capacity to hold, acknowledge and be real with myself grows – my capacity to hold the experiences of those around me and the wider world also increases. By allowing space for ourselves to touch into the truth of our experience, we can allow more spaciousness to be with life more fully. 

If you are interested in exploring the tools that Rosen method can offer in self-awareness and care, get in touch to book your free consultation call. The call is an opportunity for you to find out more about Rosen, ask any questions you may have, and for me to ask some questions about you to get a sense of you in your life at this time. I am currently offering a number of half-price first Rosen sessions, so get in touch if you would like to take advantage of this offer. Or if you know someone who might benefit, then please do pass on my details.  

Warmly and with gratitude, 

Anna x 

Self-care and sickness

I sometimes have clients getting in touch to discuss whether or not they should come to their session later in the week because they are feeling run-down or unwell. To me, a very important part of our personal self-care is noticing when we are feeling run-down, unwell and in need of some rest.  

Sometimes when we are run-down or busy, having a Rosen session can be just what we need. Having a session might allow us to slow down a little in our week, take some time out to listen to ourselves and have the space of the session to rest and return to ourselves. This may especially be the case if we find ourselves giving a lot to others through our daily lives (such as to our families, friends, clients or our work). 

There are other times though, when it may be that we need to take space for ourselves and honour our needs in a different way. It might mean rescheduling a session and taking that time to process, rest or recover from illness. This is particularly true when we are unwell. It is great to let ourselves know that we can honour our needs and allow ourselves to rest and recover when this happens. It is also a way of taking care of those around us, including our practitioners. As a practitioner, this is also an important part of my care for myself and for you as my clients, so when I am ill, I will also take time off to recover and care for myself.  

If you are ever unsure about whether or not to come for your session, please do get in touch. Ideally with as much notice as possible, but in some circumstances, this is not possible. I do have a cancellation policy, and I ask that clients pay for any sessions cancelled within 24 hours of the session time. Though I do also take into consideration the circumstances involved. 

Warmly and with gratitude,  

Anna x 

Booking and Availability

Hi folks,  

My availability is changing and it may be useful for you to know when I am generally able to book in sessions. My main practice days are Thursdays and Fridays and I offer sessions at 10am , 11.30am, 2pm and 3.30pm.

I am sometimes able to be flexible around these times and also have a limited number of later slots on some days available for those who are unable to attend a daytime session.  

I generally suggest that having an initial 3 sessions is advisable and offers an opportunity for us to get to know each other and for you to get a sense of the work and whether it is something you would like to continue with.  

How regularly you choose to have sessions depends on your personal situation and needs. It can be good to have sessions every two, three or four weeks as this can allow some time for processing in between sessions.  

I currently have some morning and afternoon sessions available next week, so do get in touch if you would like to book in a session.  

Warmly and with gratitude,  

Anna x 

The vulnerability of showing up and being seen…and marketing. 

Over the last few weeks I’ve been curious about the connection between my own experiences of markets (or rather…avoiding marketing) and a shared experience that many of us have of resisting or finding it challenging to show up and be seen (both by others and by ourselves). 

Before I came to my first Rosen Method session, I found expressing myself challenging. Not in a way that was immediately obvious to others perhaps – I could often speak articulately and communicate aspects of how I was feeling. But there was a deep truth that I didn’t really know how to get to, nor how to express. Certain emotions were scary, or unreachable…and expressing those, let alone feeling them, seemed an impossibility.  

Through Rosen sessions, I learnt to get to know myself more deeply. To acknowledge that I had a whole range of emotions including joy, fear, sadness and anger. Over time, I also learnt that it was ok to feel those emotions in the body and to express them in my sessions and then beyond my sessions. Ultimately, a big part of my journey has been learning to allow myself to be seen – in all the glorious technicolour of the spectrum of emotions that are available. And when I say ‘seen’, I also and perhaps most importantly mean – seen by myself. 

Curious, isn’t it, that our habits sometimes come curling back to us in new ways? It was only recently that I realised that the pattern of hiding and not allowing myself to be seen, had been playing out subtly in the arena of marketing (or not marketing!) I have spent some months now procrastinating about, ignoring and utterly avoiding marketing my practice. Something always seems to pop up and need to be done just in the moments I have set time aside to get on with writing a blog post, or designing my business cards. How strange that I suddenly have another engagement, or the housework calls on me to prioritise it, just as I look at my diary to find the words ‘marketing time’ scrawled across today’s page. ‘Maybe this is happening because marketing just isn’t important,’ I think to myself. But there is something going on at a deeper level. Though in many ways I am now much more able to allow myself to see and be seen, there is a new and subtle layer emerging in relation to being seen in the wider world. 

Crawling around in the belly of my experience, is fear. It is a familiar monster, a creature who although seemingly scary to look at, is actually tender, frightened and uncertain of itself. This is the part of me that just wants to run for the hills when putting myself ‘out there’ is mentioned. So, this resistance to marketing, avoidance of creating materials to share my work with others, is simply an extension of this pattern of hiding and of avoiding being seen. This new layer, is an opportunity to get to know myself in a new way and to attend to and acknowledge the tender experience within – the fear and uncertainty.  

So, having looked it in the eyes, tended to it, explored it and acknowledged it’s existence and the space it may need to begin an unravelling, I am entering into a new layer of allowing myself to be seen. New opportunities to be more alive in the world and in my experience. What does that mean practically though? Well, on one level, it has meant an ongoing listening to my body’s responses and the emotions and views that attach to this tightening within my belly and my heart. A practice of showing kindness to all that I find in these explorations. And on another level, it means that I have now designed and sent off for business cards (watch this space) and, this first blog post is hot off the press and ready to go winging out to you.  

And what does it mean for my Rosen practice? Well, this exploration is showing me a new layer of seeing the tenderness that can lie beneath our shared human fears of being seen in all our wonderful technicolour aliveness. The need to allow space, patience, kindness and acceptance in allowing ourselves to emerge. A beautiful reminder that being more fully alive to our experience includes all our emotions and all of our responses to the world, and that allowing ourselves to be seen is a layered and unfolding experience. 

If you are interested in exploring how Rosen could support you to move towards being more fully alive, get in touch for a free consultation call and book your first session. I am currently offering people a first session at half price, so do get in touch soon to make use of this offer.  

Warmly and with gratitude,  

Anna x 

As a Rosen Method Intern, I am practicing under supervision. All information you share with me is confidential and I adhere to the Rosen Institute codes of conduct and am a member of the Complimentary Health Professionals (CHP) and The Rosen Institute (RI).

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