When I first came to Rosen, I thought of myself as someone who was pretty self-aware and who understood her own emotions and the world around her. What I realised through having Rosen sessions over many months, was that the self that I thought I knew was hiding quite a lot under the surface! The conscious and subconscious are often described like an iceberg – where the small tip of the iceberg that is visible above water is the conscious and the huge submerged part under the water is the subconscious. And with such a weight behind it, is it any wonder that the subconscious does so much steering of our lives! So, with this in mind, it is not surprising that there was a large part of myself that I was not familiar with and that I subsequently began to get to know.
The parts of ourselves that we show to the world and those around us, are often the parts that we are will to show the world – perhaps our ‘best versions’ as we perceive them. Maybe we want those around us to see that we are happy, kind, sociable, funny, clever, or any number of qualities that we value. Which means that there will be many other ‘rejected’ parts of ourselves that we are trying to obscure from the world and from ourselves, including parts that are unconscious. Perhaps we feel or have learnt that it is not acceptable to be sad, angry, quiet, to need our own space or to not know. The result of this can be that we unconsciously close down or deny parts of our experience and therefore don’t allow ourselves to live in the world in all our fullness and beauty.
I have certainly met this in myself through Rosen sessions! Let’s explore the example of anger and frustration. I had in many ways denied myself these emotions and therefore closed the possibility for myself to really feel and express that part of myself and those responses to the world. I perceived myself as someone who was not angry, whilst silently seething. And, what I have also realised since, is that this seething was apparent to those around me, even if I was in denial myself!
My practitioner supported me to begin to express, allow and release this over time. But to begin with, I needed to get familiar with what anger felt like in my body and to allow myself to stay with the feeling and allow it to unfold. It could be very elusive to begin with, I might get a small glimpse or sensation, only for it to dissolve into fear, blankness or confusion. There might be other emotions alongside it too, mixing up and making it hard to have a sense of the anger. Together with the support of my practitioner, I learnt to allowed it to return and be there in my body, and, almost like getting to know a wild animal, I have gradually been able to meet it and touch it more fully. I know that through doing this, I have become much freer in my way of being in the world and a lot that was unconsciously held in the body around this has been released.
It doesn’t mean that I don’t experience anger now of course, in fact the effect has been that I am able to recognise and own it more when it does arise. I am less inclined to resist it or be afraid of it when I do feel frustrated or angry. I am more resourced to meet it rather than push it away. There is a freedom in knowing ourselves more deeply and in allowing those parts of ourselves to have their space and to say what they need to. There is a strength that can come from this, an opportunity for empowering ourselves.
Rosen offers us opportunities to get familiar with these unfamiliar parts of ourselves, to bring the unconscious in to our experience and to acknowledge more of ourselves in our lives.
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Warmly and with gratitude,
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